Letter to Latino People

(This letter was written due to the inspiration that beholds upon me when I said on social media that America is the greatest nation no cap. That’s what I wrote on my own social media Instagram and all that came after that were hateful direct messages.)

Dear Latino People,

We are being lied to and set up. The Orwellian society is being slowly created.  The mainstream media, Democratic politicians, social justice activists, and perhaps even your own family members had led you to believe America is in the midst of a racial conflict similar to the Civil War and the civil rights movement.

This fake racial war has made us believe that the enemy is the Proud Boys, the KKK, rural militia groups, and Trump supporters for a made-for-TV race war. Barack Obama was our president five years ago now think about that for a second. Less than 5 years ago, we had the first black president in the white house yet, we are made to believe America has been overrun by violent white supremacists determined to reinstate segregation, Jim Crow Laws, and maybe even slavery.

Evidence of this massive wave of 1960’s style bigotry amounts to three things:

  1. Republicans want all voters to show government issued ID (people have to understand in order to get the COVID-19 vaccine you must present a government issued ID.)
  2. On January 6, unarmed Trump supporters crashed the Capitol and took pictures inside Nancy Pelosi’s office.
  3. Across the nation, police kill on average 250 black men. 150 Latino men, and 450 white men per year.
  4. Colin Kaepernick taking a knee during the National Anthem, thus the NFL is racist because they didn’t give him a job. (No he was just a terrible quarterback once Jim Harbaugh left from the 49ers.

This is the evidence that the Mainstream Media has presented to us proving that white supremacy is the most dangerous domestic threat America faces. George Floyd, a habitual criminal and drug addict, is the Crispus Attucks of this raging race war. He is our martyr and our hero and our rally cry.

It’s a setup. We are being used as pawns in this chess game and being distracted from the actual war that has nothing to do with race. Do not be fooled by the newspeak.  Pay Attention!

The real “Civil War” is about global power and the future of America’s system of government. This country’s elite, global citizens, and corporations prefer communism over capitalism and democracy. They prefer China’s system over our system.

America has been the world’s leader in racial progress and fairness. A friend came to mention to me the story of soccer player Samuel Eto’o who had to deal with racial discrimination every time he went to go play for a new team. That is why I said that we are the leader in progress and fairness.

The mainstream media are now allowed to explain this to you. Advertisers, aka major corporations, will no longer support media outlets that back our current democratic and capitalistic systems of governance.

You say what about Fox News? Turn it on. It’s filled with a bunch of MyPillow ads and wounded soldier commercials. America’s big, global corporations, the ones looking to improve in China’s market and share and value are not financially supporting Fox News. The most popular voices in this television network do not support China. They dislike it.

The faux race war the mainstream media have promoted is a tool being used to convince you and non-Latino Americans that our system of government has been a giant failure. They want you to believe that a great reset is necessary to achieve fairness.

The reset is communism, which starts with the gateway drug of socialism and ends in full-blown Marxism. China is run by the Communist Chinese Party. Communism has no respect for minorities or Latino people. Communism has no respect for the 1st amendment that our nation has. Communism has no respect for individual freedom or freedom of religion. Communism has no tolerance for political dissent.

Your religion and free speech will not survive the reset. Communism is racial oppression’s best friend. When a nation is stripped of religious faith and free speech, few people have the courage to defend the rights of minorities. The elites cozying up to China do not care about you. They are aware of how despicably China treats minorities. Yet, we still do business there. They are also aware of how China squashes dissent.

Do your own research on Communism and what it stamps out and how it oppresses. Don’t take my word. (this is what I told multiple people when I was attacked on social media.

You might ask why people do not talk about this in the mainstream media? They are global elites. The reset won’t affect them or their loved ones. Communism favors wealthy elites far more than capitalism and democracy

Why won’t your favorite white cable newsman or newswoman tell you what I am telling you? Rachel Maddow, Anderson Cooper, and Chris Cuomo aren’t they our allies? No. They are not. They’re political lobbyists working on behalf of the corporations and politician’s pushing the reset.

What about ME? Well, many people picture me as a conservative but I am not. I am more of a moderate and lean more towards the middle. I always told people I am the middle-of-the-road kind of guy. I will listen to both sides of the issue and act upon what I think is fair and just. The reason I started this blog was to have the freedom to write, say, and speak the truth.

My beliefs and faith won’t let me jump on the bandwagon train of lunacy, racism, and sacrilege of the Black Lives Matter movement. A movement founded by three lesbian self-admitted trained Marxists. BLM is an atheist movement in support of LGBTQ issues and the reshaping of America into communism. Do not be fooled. I see people on their Instagram pages put BLACK LIVES MATTER. “Support the cause.” It’s stupid. Do not be part of the deception. Open your eyes and pay attention.

Latino people tell me all the time: “ I don’t support the BLM organization, but I support the slogan and sentiment.”

Let me translate that. You despise the devil’s tree but love the fruit it produces. This is hypocrisy. Think about what people tell me all the time. Too many Malcom X wannabes out here even though they only date white partners. (Talking about you Shaun King.)

We have to stop the pawn game. We are pawns. We are condoms. They used us and dispose of us like after you had sex with an attractive woman. Throw in the trash. We have to stop letting everyone used us. Latinos get told on the mainstream media: deportations are high, police officers kill Latino men, and that this country hates Latinos and blacks every day. We have to stop letting everyone use us. We are being played. The royal Queen on the chessboard is using us pawns to get destroyed for then to checkmate and start the great “reset.” We are being played, black, white, and Latino working-class people. It’s all a giant setup.

Trump supporters were also played. They were manipulated to storm the nation’s capital and then the corporate media portrayed it as a bloody violent KKK rally intended to lynch America’s democracy. The so-called “insurrection” is an excuse for the government to seize more power and crush dissent.

We, Latino people, have been convinced the crushing of working-class white people is good for us.

It’s not. Working-class white people, Christian white people, and Catholic white people are our true allies, not the elites. We can’t see that because of the made for tv hyper-focus on racial conflict.

The defunding and demoralizing of police are tactics deployed to increase violence in major cities. Local media outlets are focusing on this rise in crime, national media outlets have followed suit, and social media platforms are generating viral videos exposing the crime wave.

The stars of this content: Black and Latino perpetrators.

It’s a massive setup. The stirring of racial animus between Obama worshippers and Trump Worshippers is orchestrated by billionaire elites, executed by train Marxists, promoted by millionaire influencers in the media, sports, and entrainment worlds, and cosigned by religious leaders pursuing popularity.

My critics will tell you: “Oh, Ruben Tinajero is a sellout. He hates Latino and black people. He is a racist, bigot, and stupid to know any better.”

That’s laughable. It’s immaterial to my success. It’s part of the deception. I despise the people deceiving us, manipulating us to participate in a racial class that will be used to destroy the religious and individual freedoms that liberated us.

There is a reason black and brown people across the globe fight to get into this country and excel when they do. They love the American tree and the fruit it produces.

Thanks for reading,

Ruben Tinajero

The XR Novela (Part 1 of 10)

Photo Taken by Friend. I have full rights to use photograph

(Based on a true story. Names and Places fictionalized to protect the identity of the individual)

                On November 27, 2018 I got off my Silver Altima open the door and I threw up. I remember getting a headache and nauseous that I did not want to go inside the building. Inside my soul, I felt my conscience telling me not to go inside the building to just leave. Oh boy was it right. It was not in vain though. In the next two years, I would learn about myself.

                As I walk to the door and push on the intercom button and ask for Larry. A beautiful woman came to the door and open the door. She was wearing a black skirt and white dressing shirt and the most elegant earrings I have ever seen. She looked like a monument. She walked me to Larry and then Larry escorted me outside the office and into reality.

                I had my lunch bag with me that day so he escorted me inside the room that had a big sign that read Café on the top of it. On the corner of the blue table and green chairs, a young woman sat there with a shirt of the country of Colombia on. She had wavy black hair, white skin tone, and blue shorts on sitting there and eating an apple. She intrigued me the moment that I laid my eyes on her. I wanted to get to know more about her at that moment. I left my food in the refrigerator and I walked outside the door.

                This moment that I am about to describe is the moment I realized that I was going to change. The judgement aspect that I received from this person is something that fueled me to be the best I could be. The judgement fueled me to prove people wrong.

                I walked up to a young man and I introduce himself and he said his name is Eazy. I told him like Eazy-E and he said yes. He came out of his area and went to go look for a woman. Eazy told him directly she was going to train me and she said “I don’t like training. I feel he is not going to be good enough for this type of work. Why are we wasting our time?” She treated me like garbage. She was harsh on me getting angry that I could not carry multiple items in my hands. She literally one time got the paper from my hand and swipe it and put it as a ball and threw it at me. Yes, this all happened. Her name was Mary Cella de la Cruz.

                The moment fueled me for the rest of my tenure at this place. Now there is another incident later on that I will describe the makes the fuckery of this place so toxic that it can change anyone’s soul. For now this moment that I described got engraved into my soul and it was my motivation and fuel to overcome all the obstacles that I faced.

                The environment became like a club. Everywhere you went music was playing of all different types. It was a crazy atmosphere that I enjoyed. The chaos was something that I looked forward to when I went there.  

                This moment that I am about to describe is how I met my best friend Felipe. I met him while I crash into him at the time aisle G. I was going full speed and me and him crash into each other. I will always remember what he said. DIARIO. It is a word that has stayed with me for a long time. We became the best of friends and has always been there for me in the best moments and the worst moments.     

                These next three weeks I would describe as a happy moment in my tenure at this place. I would describe this as a moment that I realize destiny exists. Is it finally going to happen?

No its not only disappointment and a war would ignite. This is the story.

                If you ever heard the story of Helen and the story of Troy how a woman send a 1000 ships to go retrieve her then this is the story but in real life.

 I was eating lunch with Felipe and the girl from Colombia sat in front of me. I got nervous and I did not know to react. (You got to realize that this was over two years ago I was different.) The girl sat in front of me and I ask for her name. Her name was Mady. (People would know who she is.) She sat there and smiled and said her name. Felipe knows the brightness of my eyes lit up when I saw her. He knew that I liked her the moment that I lay eyes on her. Who wouldn’t right? She was beautiful and young. She seems an interesting person to hangout with and to have a conversation with all the time.

                For the next couple of weeks, we ate lunch together and had conversations. It was like Forrest and Jenny just enjoying each other’s company like we were hanging out at a tree. Felipe help me get through this moment since he always pushed me in the right direction with her. Everything was going fine. It was all rainbows and butterflies. Until, it just stopped.

We stopped eating lunch together and everything. This became the beginning of the rivalry. I walked outside to my car since I needed to get my charger to charge my phone. I walk pasted a red Fiat car and saw them making out in the car. It was mady and some other fellow. I walked by like I did not notice. It was the ultimate mistake that I should not have been there.

I was in the back when a short man named Carlitos came up to me and told me he needed to speak to me. He said “I have the power to get rid of you. So you better stay away and keep your mouth shut. So do not dare come to me cause I am the king of this place.” I was stunned. How is this possible? What did I do wrong? I later realize this is now the boyfriend of that girl that I ate lunch with everyday. The dream was over. I cannot believe that this happened right. But I have done nothing wrong…

This moment became the fuckery of it all. I became consume with hatred and vegenance. From that day forth, I said my life mission is to get rid of you and to destroy you. I need to come up with a plan for this person to be gone. You see I take things personally when it comes to me doing anything wrong. It was a war that would last about a year and a half. You see I came into the purest of the forms into this place. Yet, this place changed me into the heartless person that I am today.

Someone came down the aisle in the Joey and yelled, “Get the fuck out of the way.”

This person would literally be the asshole of the warehouse. Well that’s what people would tell me. Yet, I felt he was the biggest asshole I have ever met. I just had to figured out why right?

(to be continue…)

“The Bad Beat of my Life: the story of Dayana Gomez”

“Bad Beat” is this phrase is used to describe an action at the end of an event that results in the individual bettor going instantly from winning the bet to losing the bet.

Since it is Thanksgiving, I want to say thanks to all those that are helping me with this project. I love to write and it’s time for me to write a book. I am thankful for 2020. The ups and downs of life. It has made me develop a skill called “mindfulness.” To Jason and Andy, those who taught me that meditation, mindfulness, and stoicism can come a long way into my life I love you guys!. To my best friend Liza, thanks for everything and I love you girl.!

Here is the introduction to my book:

I do not know if being kind could make me regret and hate so many things about myself. I am not the kind of person who can be neutral or what people can call diplomatic or fake. I just cannot be that type of person. Even though some may say, “I have to be a total bitch or total nice. There is no in between.” I am a all or nothing kind of person. If I love someone, I give 100% of everything. I think what’s mine is theirs too. Its just my world perspective how I see things. But if I am being triggered or poked unnecessarily then I am not the kind the person that will stay quiet either. I will of course take a stand and voice my opinion and that’s where it all begins in this journey that I am writing with this book.

            I think in my own experience of all these years, I have met so many people specially the ones that were close to my heart- that I have given myself so much of myself to, I feel that I am hallow within.  I know it’s a tricky sentence but I think with time and because of an emotional connect, I kept breaking myself into pieces and I have been falling in different places- maybe I walked out of the zone but the pieces that were broken stayed. The pieces that made me whole were left far behind. Ironically this made me feel more heavier than light!

            Maybe that’s how I stayed behind and when I walked out of a particular self I kept losing myself, I will feel that I’ve given so much of myself to people who never deserved it, who could never value it and obviously never cared enough- which makes me feel that the broken parts of me are still left somewhere unnoticed and unvalued. I wish I could have learn a thing called picking it up and leaving for own good. Take responsibility of putting the boundary of standards to further incline that I did not deserve such a treatment. I wish at least I would not have not have betrayed myself, just like everyone I trusted did. I wish I wouldn’t have lost myself to become an empty me today! Let the journey begin to find myself again. This is the book that will describe such a journey.

The TEN Takeaways of the 2020 Election

Many people asked me about the opinion about the election. The democrats dream might come true. I lost a lot of money in betting the Trump re-election which is okay for me. It’s the cost of gambling.  It appears that the dream scenario is coming true for the democrats. They have replaced one old white man as president whom they ALLEGED had a history of racist comments, self-dealing with foreign countries to benefit his family, and major cognitive issues with an older white man with a more clear history of racist comments, stronger evidence of self-dealing with foreign countries to benefit his family, and a much more severe case of cognitive decline.

What a win right?

In all seriousness, this is why many people consider our political class to be farcical.

  1. We have to do a better job at counting votes for president and securing our elections.

Whatever your politics, the past four days of vote counting America has made us look like a third world country. It is a disaster and as an American I am disappointed by this whole process. Our system for counting votes in many states is just broken and corrupt especially when elections are close. But we can and should fix this. We have a strong precedent to fix such a problem.

In 2000, Florida became the laughing stock of the world when it took them 37 days to determine who won the state’s election.

To the credit, the people of Florida resolved to never allowed that to happen again. And they haven’t which I am glad. In particular, Florida did a great job reporting back their votes this election season. I am impressed that Florida after 2000 has done a great job to win this election. They announced their results within a few hours of the polls closing and there was zero controversy involved in Trump’s three-point win, a virtual landslide, in Florida.

Contrast that with the situations that exist in Georgia, North Carolina, Pennsylvania, Nevada, Michigan, and Wisconsin.

Lets be honest with ourselves.

The debauchery and incompetence of extended vote counting is a great metaphor for why so many people hate having to deal with the US Federal and State governments. Services like the USPS, DMV, and IRS are archaic and brutally difficult to work with. That’s why so many people backed Trump, because he favored smaller government and more personal freedom.

Can anyone still counting votes, almost all of which go to one side, four days after an election- or even longer as seems likely to be the case- instills confidence in our democracy?

At the absolute least, vote counting for this long instills a clear appearance of impropriety. We have to eliminate this by following Florida’s lead and ensuring that a situation like this can never happen again.

Our elections often crumble when they are close. And this was the closet election of my life.

2. Will the Supreme Court get involved in the election?

I don’t think so.

You may ask why not?

Because Chief Justice John Roberts has shown himself to be quite political and I don’t think he views this election as worth expending his court’s political capital. I think he will avoid working in this mess.

Why rush into battle when he can look at the results of this election and see, as we will be discussed below, that Biden will have limited political ammunition or mandate upon his inauguration?

What’s more if the court gets involved in a big way, and Biden still finds a way to win the election, then there may be even more of a push for an expanded number of justices.

I think the court is likely to sit this battle out

3. Libertarian voters have to look themselves in the mirror and ask what the purpose of their vote is.

I voted for the Libertarian candidate Gary Johnson in 2016.  I did that as luxury choice that California always goes democratic in every election since 1988. I think if you’re a rational adult, you need to pick your favored candidate in incredibly closed elections.

Otherwise, you’re avoid making a decision about who will be your president.

I understand the desire for a third party to exist- again, I’ve voted third party before- but if you’re in a competitive state I think you are making a poor choice not to help select the president with your vote

4. If he goes on to lose, what is the legacy of Donald’s Trump term in office?

His critics said Donald Trump would be an unmitigated disaster if he was elected president.

Yet assuming he loses the election, by an insanely narrow margin while increasing support among minority voters over what he received in 2016, what will he be leaving behind?

A country with a 6.9 % unemployment rate that has weathered the biggest pandemic in 100 years. A new COVID vaccine that will be released early in 2021 and will represent the fastest vaccine created by mankind for the worst novel virus in human history. Three new Supreme Court justices and a remade federal court stocked with highly qualified Republican appointees. Greater peace for Israel in the Middle East, the defeat of ISIS, more of our troops back home from never ending wars, and we saw no great danger from North Korea or Iran. Plus, he’s put China on notice that America will no longer be dominated by Chinese Interests.

He reduced tax rates on businesses, making American companies internationally, spurring the greatest economy in American history.

Trust me, I understand that people don’t like his tweets, but when you actually look at his record over four years in office, what can you point to that he caused that was truly bad?

And I don’t see how Trump can be accused of leaving office having done great harm to our country or his party.

I really don’t.

5. What will Joe Biden will do in his first two years in office?

Biden will have just two years, probably, to be relevant in any way in office. And that might be giving him too much credit. He may not leave the White House for most of his first year in office. And I don’t see any way Biden runs again for office — he’d be 82 at his next inauguration — given he barely campaigned this year. That means the final two years of his presidency will be spent with everyone else angling to take his job.

So what is Biden capable of actually doing in his first two years?

Not much, honestly.

He’s mostly a figurehead.

If Republicans win at least one of the Senate seats in Georgia, he won’t have a majority there. If Democrats win both, then he’d have a tiebreaking vote via Kamala Harris, but that would require that his entire party back his positions.

That would seem to take the idea of packing the court off the table.

Even if he could hold all fifty voters together in his Senate, does he want to begin his tenure with the most contentious move in American judicial history?

That seems unlikely. (Although we don’t know for sure because Biden still hasn’t been willing to tell us what his opinion is on this issue. Which is, frankly, an appalling failure of the American media.)

Worse than that for Biden, without hate for Donald Trump to unify his base, there’s likely to be a great deal of civil war among the far-left wing Democrat socialists ascendant on social media and the more moderate Democrats who still believe in capitalism.

Is Biden going to be able to bridge that divide and hold a fractious party together, or will they devolve into internecine combat? I think the latter is more likely than the former.

The most likely outcome of Biden’s first two years is likely to be gridlock.

6. What does Biden do about shutdowns?

This will be the most important decision Biden makes as president.

Partly the status of a vaccine will factor in here — when can it arrive and how capable of being widely distributed will it be when it arrives? — but Biden will also have to decide whether to support lockdowns.

Already Europe is beginning to lockdown again.

I think it’s fair to say that Trump will not attempt to lock us down between now and Inauguration Day, but come late January what will Biden do?

Will Biden support the idea of lockdowns? Will he offer any guidance at all to coronabro governors in Democratic states who may lockdown their communities even more than they already have? Will those Democratic governors begin to ease lockdowns because Trump is now beaten? There are a ton of issues at play here.

This will be the most consequential decision of a Biden administration, and I think it will override almost every other policy choice he makes in his first year in office.

The left wing of the Democratic party wants to shut down the country and provide massive payments to everyone while those lockdowns exist. I can tell you right now that another lockdown will be fought in a massive way by many small business owners.

Lockdowns don’t save lives, and they destroy our economy. They are a failed policy to combat a virus that is not a significant threat to the vast majority of our country.

I want our kids in school. I want everything open. I want people all back to work.

What’s more, I’m not going to consent to being locked down again. I feel like there are many people like me out there. Donald Trump would not have attempted to lock us down again if he’d won. Will Biden? I hope not.

But this will be messy for Biden given the platform he ran on, his election emboldens the coronabros.

7. What happens to the Trump haters in the media and the media overall without Trump?

With Trump out of office — and Biden replacing him — what reason do MSNBC and CNN have to exist ? And most of their commentators as well? Trump was their Great Satan. If he’s not there, everyone turns off their televisions. Television ratings require conflict. But without Trump, most of these stations have nothing to fight.

Purely from a business perspective, MSNBC and CNN needed Trump to win.

Now that he’s lost, they’ve killed their golden goose laying golden eggs.

Their businesses are likely to collapse.

Given the rapid decline of the cable and satellite bundle, these networks were already facing massive structural difficulties in the years ahead, but the Trump boost over the past four years helped to cover up that business collapse.

But what now?

I think Fox News will be fine because they now have a villain in the Biden White House. Their ratings and audience will stay strong, but what happens to CNN and MSNBC? What happens to news in general? Heck, what happens to the New York Times and the Washington Post and the other arms of the media resistance? I think their businesses struggle mightily.

The biggest legacy, I believe, of the Trump presidency is that it killed the idea of impartial media.

(And by the way, let me add this here: the Fox News decision to call Arizona for Biden was the single worst decision I saw made by any network. Joe Biden may end up winning Arizona, but the fact that we are now into Friday and the margin keeps declining makes that call incredibly suspect. Arizona is now much closer of a race than North Carolina. If you can’t call North Carolina yet, how can you call Arizona?)

8. What will the coronabros in sports say now that Trump is out of office?

The coronabros fought the idea of college football happening for months. Well, college football is played outside in the fall.

College basketball will be played indoors in the winter — with crowds present! — and with much higher virus counts now present, and these coronabros haven’t said a word to combat the idea of the season happening.

How can you explain that?

There are only two options: A) they now know they were wrong to argue against college football being played. But have you seen any of them write columns or Tweets apologizing for their anti-sports stance? I haven’t. or B) This was all political, and now that Trump has lost, they aren’t concerned about COVID’s danger for sports.

I’d like to see these guys held accountable for their opinions that it wasn’t safe to play sports, but so far I haven’t seen any accountability at all.

9. What does Trump want to do now?

Presuming he loses this election, what is Trump’s plan going forward?

Given how competitive this race was, he could certainly bide his time on the sidelines, found a new media outlet and prepare to run again in 2024.

If that was his goal, I’d advise him to spend the last two months of his time in office focusing 100% on the COVID vaccine. If he could deliver a vaccine by Inauguration Day, he’d be able to argue he officially beat COVID, but that was the reason he lost his re-election bid.

That would make him very viable in 2024, especially if Biden stumbles in his term in office.

If he decided to run, would any Republican be capable of beating Trump in the primaries in 2024? I don’t know. It’s a long time until 2024, and there are several questions at play here: will Trump still be healthy at 78 years old and be spoiling for another long campaign slog?

What Trump decides to do going forward will be the big wild card here.

10. How did this impact you Ruben?

I believed, and still believe, Donald Trump was a better choice for president. I will write a blog later why I thought about my decision. It made me close some friends and family members to vote for Donald Trump. I had valid reasons why to vote for him.

But if Joe Biden is elected president, I’ll wish him well. I’d like the president, regardless of party, to aid the overall quality of life of all people in this country. I think Trump, due to his economic policies, would have done that better than Biden.

But I don’t root against the president because I don’t root against America.

Now I may oppose some of the president’s decisions, vociferously even, but that’s normal. The only person you should agree with 100% of the time is yourself.

If anything that is why I created this blog in the first place. To create an atmosphere to share my opinion and thoughts. Writing is therapy to me. I love to write.

I believe in three things in my life: the First amendment, an honest full throated defense of American Capitalism, and a belief in American exceptionalism.

Yes, I would have liked to see Donald Trump win, but I’m already thinking about who the top contenders for election in 2024 will be and who I’ll support in that election.

I expect there will be twenty Republicans and twenty Democrats running for the presidency without an incumbent in office.

And that will be a battle worth following.

In fact, that race is already beginning.

I still have a ton of energy and a lot of battles to fight before I hang up the sword.

Thanks for supporting me and Thanks for reading.

God Bless America.

Surviving Unrequited Love

It’s this weird thing we do to ourselves. Unrequited love, unrequited love – like it’s a romantic thing. It is not its all bullshit.

Rejection happens everywhere: the bar, party, or someone that has another partner. Those rejections are common. There is a type of rejection that hurts a lot more than anything else. I call it unrequited love.

A type of rejection that hurts a lot more than when we meet someone that we have gotten close to and whose opinion matters to us. When this person that we hold in high esteem rejects us it becomes extremely painful and it is really painful because we think that this person has smart views on life and people. They have made a decision to not be with us.

A couple of things that I need to remember about this rejection. This could happen to anyone on this planet. It does not matter who you are, it does not matter where you from and it does not matter what you have. Sometimes we make it very personal and we make it about ourselves. That’s when we start saying, “if someone that great didn’t want me then there is something wrong with me? I must not be as great as that person.” Sometimes the hardest thing in the world when we think we are great and someone we think is great to tell us they don’t want us. It is a really tough thing to go through and it bruises our egos. It leaves us wondering if we are as great as we are?

I have to remember this from this perspective.  There are times in my life that I rejected great people. There are times in my life I let go of a great thing. There are times in my life that I overlooked a great thing. I always try to see the sunny side of things.

Just because someone is great does not mean they do not have the potential to be wrong. The complexity of life is the beautiful dark twisted fantasy of it all. It can be more complex than someone else comes through their life if the shiny object does everything they like at the moment short term.  On closer inspection, they do not have all the great qualities that you do but unfortunately, you are losing out right now and they seem that they have everything at the moment and living the reality that you would like. Sometimes in life, people make bad decisions or maybe it is the right decision for them at the time. Maybe there is someone better for us than this person. This person that we hold in such high esteem is not the person for us or so we think. Maybe they have qualities we like and that’s important of course but people we going to be with have qualities that we like but also, has more qualities that we didn’t know we like.

The important aspect of surviving unrequited love is that I continue to work on myself. I hope to finally embark on a journey of self-love to overcome such an experience. Unrequited love is part of life it is just navigating through the waters of a shitstorm to get through it. I continue to work to make the most incredible person I can possibly be.  I continue to be my true self.

At the moment I cannot be friends with you. It just at the moment, not something that I can do. I rather just have my space and just let things be. I get it you want to be friends and on good terms, at the moment it’s just not possible. I have to worry about my own life.

Someone telling you they do not want to be with you is CLOSURE. It doesn’t matter why.  The reason it doesn’t matter because reality doesn’t change. There are her reasons and there’s your reality. Your reality is the one you have to worry about because this is your life…

As Always….


Stop Communism! Ban Tiktok!

In unprecedented times and uncertainty, the social media giant Tiktok is servicing the distraction to the masses to get them through these pandemic times. Lately though it has moved from distraction to more of a political tool of political polarization. Tiktok is the Newspeak from 1984 or the soma from the book Brave New World. People are getting distracted but at the same time is getting brainwashed with all these political propagandas.

 Tiktok has become a “didactic tool” to get information when it comes to the coming elections, politics, and news going on in the world. The fact that the app contains more than 100 million U.S users leads to three main kinds of risks: user data falling into Chinese government or other hostile hands, Chinese propaganda and censorship efforts penetrating U.S society, and threats to national security as US-China ultimately grows into a Cold War.

Each of the risks is reality, but each is in reality of the dangers of using any social media app. A focus on Tiktok alone will do little to solve the actuality of the problem. No one should fear that an app that is based in China will share all the private data stored in the application. Tiktok is a stepping stone to addressing the risks that are mentioned above.

The risk that the Chinese government or other countries that are hostile towards the United States of America to gain access towards the user data is real. Possibility is the reality of the imagination since Tiktok collects so much data about their users. Not only do they record a person’s posts, but they track what posts a user looks at and for how long. They track location data, system configuration information, and other details that can make user identifiable across different services. Tiktok in the privacy policy states that it stores all US user outside of China but they may shared it with the parent company if needed. (https://www.tiktok.com/legal/privacy-policy?lang=en)

The company may be doing its due diligence to limit such actions that the Chinese government can do it is still a possibility. The possibility that they could lean on executives and engineers in China to gain access. And they could do it through legal requirements to help the government with national security matters, through extralegal pressure or even through infiltration.

Honest people cannot be naïve the volumes of data that Tiktok has in its control; let alone the likelihood that the data could end up in the wrong hands. The possibility is too high.

Question is:

 What if, then, as condition of doing business in the United States, all social media companies were required to cut down on unnecessary data collection and held to account for how it is stored and used?

Tiktok is at risk since the Chinese government is communist and the company Bytedance resides in China.  Tiktok could censor ideas critical of the Communist Party or even try to affect how people vote in the upcoming elections. Most social media platforms that we use for our everyday use deliver content to its users through an opaque algorithm, despite numerous computer science efforts, it’s hard to find accountability for what contents get delivered to whom. Russia government has a long history of manipulating platforms through coordinated posting by inauthentic accounts or simply placing ads in elections for local government in Russia. China is most likely to do this in Tawian a country in which China wants to invade.

(Remember the last time a country invaded another country in 1939? Germany invaded Poland history lesson for everyone. We all knew the outcome for that.) Politically driven platform manipulation is hard to assess in the everyday life of the 21st century. It also does not require behind the scenes control of the platform.

The question is:

What if as condition of doing business in the United States, social media companies were required to meet stringent standards of transparency and accountability when it comes to activity affecting the sanctity of the democratic process or censoring political content?

Tiktok is a threat to national security. Think about it. Though how can an app be a threat to national security? Tiktok and many other apps were recently shown to be accessing information through the IOS platform user’s clipboards- a practice that the company stated was designed to detect spam and that it has since corrected. If you happen to be a top U.S national security official, accidental, or intentional leaks of information would totally be possible. The US military has told people not to use the app to further the damage if any leaks have happened with the military service.  Yet this kind of hypothetical intelligence information would be more effective than ever. To address national security risks from widespread data collection and cybersecurity vulnerabilities, what if, as a condition of doing business in the United States, apps and app stores were required to meet universal security standards to protect user data and whether or not you candle handle these secrets?

The problem with the app is that it only addresses part of the problem that the government is finally looking at the bigger picture. Only a universal set of enforced rules for the platforms- and the companies behind them that trade in data and interpolated insights about their users- can address legitimate government security concerns and give users confidence that their online lives are free from harmful snooping or manipulation through opaque algorithms. And..



(Big Brother is ourselves; each one of us watching each other)  

Kanye West’s Self-Awareness

Kanye West is the realization of his own self-awareness. Self-Awareness is like an onion one must peel off the layers in order to find one’s true self.  He is finally peeling off the onion that addiction to fame is killing his soul. His most recent albums have shown this self-awareness with powerful songs that are fuelled with his own language for crying for help. The rest of us, particularly people who rush onto social media to mock Kanye West’s campaign rally as he was smoking a blunt, could use Kanye’s West self-awareness. 

As most people know, I am a major fan to Kanye West. I have bought most of his shoes, albums, clothes, and concerts. Anytime he is presented anywhere near my area in a concert environment I will go watch his show. I believe he is one of the great performers when it comes to watching an entertainer perform art.

I been following Kanye West since 2010 when I fell in love with the album My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy. His album is the most creative genius since it was inspired because of the famous incident that happened with Taylor Swift. It was his redemption to become back into the world after his incident cause a great blow to his mental health. I felt his life has been steady after that moment until he hit his anger album with it come to the album “Yeezus”. I believe this was the breaking point for him. I believe that he became addicted to fame and its slowly starting to kill him. His breaking point I saw it live when he was performing at Staples Center for his new album “The Life of Pablo” it felt different since all of sudden he walks off the stage and did not come back. Later on, he cancelled his whole “Pablo” Tour and lost millions.

Publicly it came out that he was having mental health issues. Overworking might have been the cause but it was a deep-rooted issue at this point.

Kanye West recent stunt to making a campaign rally made it come to be the self-awareness that we need during this identity politics crisis. You cannot be an independent thinker if you are you are cast off out of the human race. That is the problem with the United States of America. Like my previous blog said you cannot have any sort of independent thought if you do the thought police come and put you in jail.

I understand what Kanye West message is during the campaign rally. You are so suppose to have independent thought in this country. Imagine if you cast off every person that you disagree with politically in the end you would have no one around you. I believe this is what his message is. I believe his recent mental illness has become to the fact that he cannot be himself. He is warning us about identity politics. As a Latino, I applaud him since he is raw and authentic.  (just how I want my blog to be.)

Liberalism is the minority people’s cigarette. In the immediate aftermath of the death of George Floyd and Breonna Taylor, Democrats market to us that liberalism to us as fashionable, sophisticated, and liberating. Today it needs a surgeon general’s warning: it is hazardous to your family and the values taught as a child. It is also dangerous to one’s true self identity.

Kanye West is teaching us through his own flaws and mental health issues the power of one’s true self-awareness. We all need a bit of more self-awareness in our lives.

Peel off those layers of the onion and maybe you will your true self like Kanye West.

Big Brother is Watching You

Copyright @2002 1984 film


Imagine waking up one morning with a poster of this being on your wall. Imagine waking up to a society that does not have any sort of freedom of thought.  Imagine living in such a world.

Does it sound familiar to modern day society? Is American democracy being threatened to become a totalitarian government?

 If you have not read 1984 is a novel about the government controlling all facets of life. The government in this fictional world controls the way people write, people speak, and people read.  Winston Smith, the main character of the novel, is living in this society that controls him to a great degree yet, he has an instinct to think for himself. The rallies that are mandatory in order to support the government and alter the minds to a point to inflict pain that the government is always right or else. Winston though has not lost the sense of instinct to think for himself since he has his own diary. Thought police, thoughtcrime, Big Brother, and Newspeak are common phrases that are said repeatedly throughout the novel.

In the book 1984, Newspeak is the language invented by the totalitarian government to get people to embrace English socialism. Newspeak is help to reduce complete thoughtful language to just catchphrases. Imagine just talking in catchphrases all day such as “Freedom is Slavery” “War is Peace” “Big Brother is watching you”. It is dumb downed communication.

Our Newspeak language is standard English. Catchphrases like “systematic racism” “black lives matter” “blm”. It is dumb down communication to not get into complex ideals instead get brainwash by the modern Newspeak architects.

The goal of the language was to inhibit the freedom of thought, expression, and identity.

Social media is the modern-day Newspeak. “Systematic Racism” has been turned into a newspeak language that news organizations and people on social media can use to define any sort of communication or action that will make the majority minority uncomfortable.

Our minds are being deconstructed by Newspeak/Social Media. We are being programmed to believe that we need to fight to avenge the lives of ex-cons who resist arrest while ignoring that thousands of lives taken annually by street-gang violence, hundreds and thousands of lives taken by abortion, and millions of lives are being compromised annually by parental neglect.  We are being programmed to believe that America is super racist that this is a horrible country to live in. We are programmed to keep protesting on months end destroy cities like Portland and Seattle to the ground. We are programmed that all police are awful and we need less police in the street even though if we defund the police the crime rate would ultimately increase.

Trust me the people that hold the signs of Black Lives Matter signs and rioting in Portland and Seattle do not give a f—k about black people or about minorities. Those are not George Floyd’s friends or family members. Those are people that are chasing power. Only fools know that anyone would want to share power once someone has it. Liberals are making us believe through Newspeak that if you vote for Donald Trump thus you strongly believe in “systematic racism.”

What do the architects of the modern newspeak want to accomplish? What does the media manipulators toy daily with the emotions of the minorities such as African Americans, Latino, Asian, and everyone that is in the melting pot? Are we being used as pawns in a global political game? Is thinking differently than the majority a thoughtcrime now? Why is the modern day thought police trying to destroy American History?

The “thought police” is destroying American history such as destroying statues, destroying cities, and destroying the way that America was founded. The “thought police” is reducing the America’s entire narrative arc to slavery is a Orwellian rewriting of history. I am made to believe that America was the only evil nation that was using slavery and believe America is the lone country to be defined by that history. If you know history by any means, every organized and unorganized country during that time was using slavery. And every racial group has been a slave or enslaver. So please let’s stop this thought police from trying to destroy American democracy.

In modern day society “Big Brother” isn’t a totalitarian government that can alter the consciousness of the constituents with various forms of torture. Instead in modern day society, BIG BROTHER IS US! Each one of us is big brother. We are watching each other in the best ways and the worst ways. It is the honest truth.  Does this distract us from our physical bodies? Does this distract us from being true to ourselves? Does it make us connect to our animal spirit? But ultimately does doing this ultimately enhance our experience with humanity? Does it make us more human by being on social media watching each other go on with our lives? Those are questions that I do not have the answer but always remember BIG brother is watching you. (for some of you literally)

1984 is a novel written in the past tense. If you notice the mentioning of the government is all mention in the past tense. Thus, Orwell is making us believe that the freedom of thought and language ultimately prevail in defeating any oppression that is presented to these fundamental truths of healthy society. I hope America prevails. I hope our democracy does not end. I hope as a society we do not subdue to the Newspeak and everyone starts to talk like a common language. I hope society does not get more dumbfounded and instead gets more educated for them own selves. I hope we can remain complex special people that have the freedom of thought and expression.

Ultimately, what matters in life is not what happens to you but what you remember and how you remember it.

Enter The Matrix: Blue Pill or Red Pill

 Silicon Valley has created an artificial matrix. The matrix that we live in is the social media apps that we use in everyday has created a virtual world. The result has become that we escape reality everyday thru these apps infuse our minds so deep into it. Everyday on social media we are feed so much fear porn when it comes to the Corona-virus and the social justice movement that is happening right now in America thus we start to believe ideals that just are not true. My favorite movie scene from the movie “The Matrix” is when Neo has to decide to either take the red or blue pill to find out the truth. The truth that he is trapped inside a reality that is created by machines. Silicon Valley has created a machine and we are all sleeping in these pods not living in reality just like the movie “The Matrix.”

Does it sound familiar?

I am made to believe that America still has systematic racism. I am made to believe that we are still in the 1960’s. The year is 2020 people. We are living in the greatest country ever that lets us express freely, think freely, and create freely. I admit United States of America isn’t perfect but we are going in the right progression. Look at China, a communist country, that ultimately lied about the Coronavirus and literally destroyed the world’s economy and killed people is a socialist country that live in a Orwellian society of “1984”. They have no basic human rights at all. Do you want to live in a society like this? I do not. Systematic Racism for me was the Jim Crow laws and Plessy V Ferguson (1896), the separate but equal doctrine that existed during the 1960’s. Yet, people still made to believe that systematic racism exists when it has been repealed for over 50 years now. I do understand where people are getting all their info from the matrix of Silicon Valley.

Everyday people’s minds are feed that America is the most racist country that ever existed. I believe people are now trying to control how people think. I will never think for anyone; I only think for myself. If you like my opinions or hate my opinion you could always talk to me about it. I love to engage with my audience and have a discussion. I am a strong believer in the first amendment and Ass. I love girls who have a booty. Look at my Instagram feed most women that I follow must have a booty or I won’t follow them. (I am exercising my first amendment right here. It’s a joke but so truthful). I love to have a blog where I can freely express my opinion which many of you love since I am thoughtful and I provoke critical thinking within your life.

Yet, people rededicate their whole Instagram feeds to being about Black Lives Matter. (Yes I am talking about you people on social media and about you Dayana.) In which most people do not even though the mayor of their city, House Representative, Senator Representatives, and Governors. They do not know the name of them yet, they want change. For me this is the hypocritical part of the equation. Do not ask for change. Just do it. Change your mentality.

This whole world isn’t rigged against you because the color of your skin or cause of discrimination it is because of you believing false fallacies. Many people will try to trip you in life but it is your job to push them to side and keep going. If people still want to stay stuck in the 1960’s let them but why cannot you not think for yourself.

Let me be Morpheus for a moment and offer you the red and blue pill moment right in front of you. You can take the blue pill you will remind in the world that Silicon Valley and remain a mental slave to the app that is controlling your mental state. You can take the red pill follow me down the rabbit hole free yourself and start to think for yourself. Screw thinking for yourself but instead believe in yourself. I certainly do since I freely express my thoughts even though people think I am ridiculous and a bigot.

I understand that I do not pass most people’s political litmus test cause how come a Latino be a moderate and not be a democrat and support Joe Biden in the presidential election. I am not sorry. I am just being myself..  Believe in yourself! Think for yourself! May God Bless America!

To be Red or To be Blue the choice is within you…

You Cannot Spell BLM Without MLB.

America’s pastime has officially been back for a couple days now. The whole nation is back to watching sports again. This pandemic has made me come to the completely appreciation of sports into my life as the pastime to get away from reality. I love to watch baseball. I have been a big fan since my younger years. I still remember the moment where I was when the Angels won the World Series back in 2002 and that moment has stayed in my heart. The best moments and happiest moments of my life have been spent in a baseball game at a stadium enjoying America’s pastime. I feel though that baseball is now under attack.

Players knelt during the national anthem in opening day of Major League Baseball. This is a bad move. Baseball is already struggling with ratings since the sport has become too regionalized and its boring for the average fan. I did love the new league rule changes when it comes to the game like a universal DH and if more than 10 innings starting with a runner on second. The game becomes an offensive show that is what people enjoy watching. People love to watch offense and do not love to watch defense except the purists who enjoy the game.

People do not come to watch sports for the politics. People do not want to be shoved politics during a relaxing part of the day to escape reality and drink a beer. Instead we are being shown a mascot. The mascot of BLM.

BLM is becoming major corporations’ mascot. The mascot that everyone supposedly loves. A Karl Marxist organization has become the lovable pet that everyone is patting in the head. The mascot is being plastered everywhere to fight off accusations of systematic racism. I will say it again systematic racism does not exist anymore. I never knelt before in my life to anyone except to God. It is going to stay that way cause that is my belief.

These gestures do not fight discrimination. And they do not prevent the next batch of riots happening. And they do not provide for any sort of change in the justice system. The rioters have been awarded. Anarchy has been rewarded.

Please inform athletes that taking a knee is becoming a fad like skinny jeans did during my high school years. I never took any fad seriously except the fad of being Gothic in my younger years but like any fad it dies off eventually. Taking a knee is becoming a three year old fad, crossed over and is the preferred gesture of people disconnected from “the culture.”  Look at what the NBA and WNBA is doing maybe MLB should learn from what they are doing.

Breonna Taylor is the new gesture for social justice. The new gesture that is being filtered into sports. Talk about it has become the new gesture when it comes to the social media universe. I am going to try to dive deep into the rabbit hole.

Taylor’s death was tragic. Three police officers went into her apartment executed a no knock search warrant to get into the premises. Taylor’s boyfriend, Kenneth Walker, has stated in multiple interviews with the Internal Affairs unit that he fired the first shot. Thus the police responded firing back 22 shots thus 8 shots hit Taylor.

Because Taylor’s boyfriend shot first, there’s zero chance for the officers to be convicted in a public trail since the REASONABLE DOUBT is so high in this case. An arrest and trail would cost Kentucky taxpayer money and with the result being non guilty would spark another national upside of riots that are more deadly and costly.

That is not written to suggest the Louisville police did nothing wrong but everything they did they did legally obtain through the judge that issued the warrant. I understand no drugs was found on the premises.  I understand Taylor was shot eight times. But “beyond a reasonable doubt” is an impossible bar to leap when a policeman is shot first and when a judge signs a search warrant. Like or not if it goes to trail, the police will justify their actions and blame Kenneth Walker for Taylor’s death. Listening to the tapes that are public on YouTube and other websites Kenneth Walker firing first is the nail of the coffin in the case if the policemen are arrested.

A healthy lifestyle does not consist of promoting racial animus and second guessing white police officers. Black Lives Matter is a political offshoot organization trying to destroy American valves like family, democracy, and freedom.

What happened on March 13, 2020 was tragic. The tragedy ultimately was caused by her trigger-happy boyfriend and potentially sloppy police investigation that was ongoing. Professional sport leagues, celebrities, and athletes are using the Breonna Taylor’s death to enrich themselves and build brands is the most tragic as her horrific death.